why god why.

It's 7:30 on a friday night- an odd time for me to be writing in my blog, since it's not a monday, wednesday or friday between 8 and 5, and because generally speaking, i have a life. So, I got home from work about 2 hours ago. I came home with admittedly high hopes for the evening. I poured myself a glass of wine, texted a few people to see what's going on, made a little food, ate that food, felt ravenous, made more food, ate that food, poured another glass of wine, got a few disappointing texts back, consoled myself with some ice cream, determined to keep an open mind about the evening- i don't need anyone, i can have a great friday night all by myself! turned on the tv- still waiting for a call about a super awesome party that just wouldn't be the same without me, quickly got bored with the tv, tried to put in a movie, dicovered that my dvd player is broken, switched back to the tv and found that Mickey Blue Eyes had just started- which i've never seen- so I popped popcorn, ate all the popcorn, decided that I MUST be pmsing because i felt like i could burst from my skin and do/eat everything in existence, walked to the corner store and did not look the attendant in the eyes when i brought my purchases forward- a glamour magazine and a box of chips ahoy, came home, poured another glass of wine, decided to temporarily give up on life, un-paused Mickey Blue Eyes, and finally- to catch us up to the present- re-paused it when I decided that my blog readers needed to know about the debauchery that was taking place on my friday night. Feel completely free to judge, however, I am reminded of a particular Bible story- something about throwing the first stone.. hm.. anyway, now that you know what my week is ending in, I hope you can go out into your evening of dinner parties, friend gatherings, bars, shows, dates, night clubs, and other socially acceptable pastimes feeling secure in the fact that no matter what sour turn your night may take, it could definitely be worse, and absolutely be more pathetic.

Mario Testino

Hello Mario. You have seen his pictures. You've ooh-ed, you've aww-ed. Now meet the man.
Here he is posing with one of the pictures that shot him to the top in the world of photography.



Now he's sought after for everything from Burberry ads to bottled water ads (smart water- Jennifer Aniston) to Album covers for people like, oh, um, i don't know- Madonna! yeah.. anyway, I've looked at some 20 pages of a google-image-search of him and here are some of my favorites. Note that these are my favorites and I tend to like a certain style so if he seems limited it's only because of the ones i've selected, cause trust me- he's anything but.

















Of course he frames each shot perfectly; of course his technical abilities are flawless; of course the lighting touches his subjects in a way that you would swear he shoots it from his fingertips. But how do you teach someone to capture that something in someone's face? It's like his camera is a laser of truth. You feel like you can see directly into the soul of the person being photographed. And if you don't feel that way, then it's because he purposefully masked the peep-hole with mystery that leaves you feeling as if your life depends on knowing their secret.

I've been ripping ads out of Vogue magazine since I was 12. Its because of people like him and because a bottled water ad can be an incredible artistic work.

Wunderkind

I know I've said this before but there is a big difference between style and fashion. Its the difference between dressing yourself well and creating art. There are obvious extremes but as you approach the line between the two, it begins to blur. This is normally where I enjoy myself. I am attracted to the wearable art. The place where you are making a statement but not interrupting people's lives with outrageousness. When I watch the runways, I am processing the pieces and how they could transcend to the street. My favorites tend to be the ones that I could actually see myself wearing (not to be confused with 'affording') All of this is say, sometimes you just have to appreciate the art. And this is art. You actually could wear this stuff-one piece at a time of course- but overall, the presentation is quite eccentric. They way they put it all together.. wow, I just thought it was breath-taking. Reminds me of Alice in Wonderland.. Alice in Wunderkind? hm? no? ok...

I would also like to say that I am still really enjoying Adele. The Beatles-esque breakdown in Cold Shoulder is perfect. amazing. LOVE it. Very inspiring to me.

You don't know what you've got til its gone...

9:45am
Sitting at my desk. Listening to Adele. "I need to get away to feel again." Popping Ricolas like candy.

9:48am
This day is made up of minutes. 3 just passed. Now if that can only happen 408 more times...

9:49am
Slowly but surely, huh?

Ok, I promise I won't count down the minutes of the day via blogging. That would surely be an all-time low.

(9:50am)

(sorry...)

"There aint no room in my bed as far as I'm concerned"

The things that are on my mind right now are:

1. Aaron- he left last weekend for Texas. Plan is to interview with a guy there to go on the road with him around the world filming- i forget for what exactly.. If that doesn't work out, he's going to Louisiana to work with his Grandpa (again, i forget doing what exactly..) and then to NYC to work with the National Arts Movement (i think thats what its called) people.. So basically, it wasn't quite true when he said he'd only be gone for a month. I'm very happy for him though, he really needed to go. I am truly excited to see what happens. He's an amazing person. I definitely miss him though. And I know that I will continue to miss him. I actually hope he is in Texas for a while though cause I am going there this summer and we could hang out!

10:38am

I was on the phone with my sister for a while which passed a nice chunk of time beautifully. Random note, my boss told me yesterday that if our business doesn't do better within the next year that they may start laying people off. I'd be first. I thought to myself, if I'm still working here in a year it wouldn't matter cause I'd probly kill myself.

Ok, #2 of what's on my mind:
Trudy Chase- Trudy Chase is a lifestyle that will be on sale soon. This comes from Aaron wisdom. He says merch is the best way for us to make the money to keep it going with Trudy. Our artwork, our clothes, our music (of course- but even before we have an actual record, we'll make an ep with the couple songs we have recorded plus some live recordings), our style and our lifestyle.

#3- I'm thinking about going somewhere this weekend. Anywhere. Just driving somewhere.. Not sure where though. Plus, I do this every friday pretty much. And I never go anywhere. I'm too broke. I just got paid though.. hm.. Where should i go? Kentucky? I wish I knew someone in Louisville.. it's a cool place. Memphis? nope. scary.. plus i don't know anyone there either.. Maybe I'll just spend the weekend in Franklin with the fellas.. If it was nice outside I would go camping. But its very cold. I wonder if Jonathan is still in Indiana, or wherever he was.. maybe i could go there for the weekend.. In all likelyhood, my weekend will go like this- go home after work.. call a couple people, wait and see if Jason will call, probly get some dinner with him, go out, wake up late tomorrow, clean, find something to do, go out, wake up late Sunday, maybe make it to church, come home, clean, bum around, go out, sleep, work monday morning. thrilling. haha, actually its not bad at all, i always have fun with my friends but I'm just a restless soul and I always want to go somewhere.. different. i get bored easily. I need change all the time. Maybe I'll just go home and rearrange my furniture.

"I need to get away to feel again."

Diva is the female version of a Hustler

Thank you, Beyonce. Good to know.

Well, it was very lovely outside this weekend and I accomplished my goal of spending the majority of my time outdoors in it. Friday after work, a friend and I went in search of a 'veranda', although we weren't 100% sure what that is exactly- it just seemed appropriate for the weather. We found a nice restaurant with a patio and some drink specials and thought we must be close so we settled there for happy hour. From there we met up with my sister and some friends before joining in on some CRS festivities with my brother and all of his label people. Saturday was walk, picnic, watermelon, walk, park, frisbe, cookout, downtown. In that order and just as perfect as it sounds. Sunday, Mere and I (after sleeping til noon) helped our step-dad (and drummer) get his studio set up in the garage and then after the sun went down we joined in on another cookout! This one was complete with bonfire and smores. Uh-mazing. Man.. that was a great weekend.

So here I am now- Monday morning. And we're starting off strong! So you know my financial situation and how I'm trying to start moving toward making money doing things that i actually enjoy. Well, last week I decided that it would be smart to get a little part time restaurant job so I went looking. There was one possibility that may or may not be falling through. Either way, seeing the smiley girl at the front in her black pants and white tucked-in botton-down and then trying to sell my guest-seating abilities to the entirely too serious restaurant manager- well, it was enough to reignite the fire under my bum. So this morning I hit craigslist and began whoring all of my abilities- singing, decorating, organizing, NOT guest-seating or phone-answering. Hopefully, I get some interest!

"I think we're dead.."

This is hilarious and seems like a nice follow-up to a previous post. enjoy.

I <3 Superheroes

which is why i am embarrassingly excited about this.

Wolverine is my second love, next to Spiderman. Spiderman's nostalgic for me; he was the youthful crush and my first love. Thats not something you ever get over. He will forever remain my #1 Superhero. Come on though, its Wolverine. um, yes please?