things

1.
Low-fat, cheap, vegan soup = cardboard soup.
damn.
Will I buy it again? probly.

2.
I am in love. It's effing scary.

3.
Actually #2 is pretty much all I can think about right now..

Bleach Blonde and Bronze

If you really feel that you must... here are some guidlines:

NO


YES



NO


YES



NO


YES



Questions?

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Breaking Down and Rebuilding

Shortly after that last post I had a little bit of a break down. I think you could call it that. It started coming on one evening slowly. I couldn't tell exactly what I was feeling. I was stressed and irritable and frustrated but I couldn't pinpoint a cause. Then, that night, the floodgates opened and I realised- that's all I really needed, a good cry. It was such a release. And a relief! My poor boyfriend though.. probably thought I was crazy.. Normally I prefer to have my emotional breakdowns in private but hey, what can you do? Thank goodness he loves me :)

I'm very focused and driven most of the time. I'm very goal-oriented. But I think everyone just gets weighed down from time to time. I am working very hard right now on a lot of different things- I'm painting (just sold my first 2 paintings last week), working on music with my sister (just played our first show last weekend), working 3 days a week at the only job thats making me a steady, though meager, income, and working/interning 2 days for an interior designer. I am also trying to devote some time to making clothes which has been something I've wanted to do for a while now. Then of course there's the new relationship and well, just life- I haven't worked out in I-don't-know-how-long and my house is a mess. BUT, I'm not complaining because this is a decision that I made- to go for it all at once- and I know my hard work will pay off, it already has begun to. I will say that having to ignore calls from collection agencies because I know I don't have a dime to give them, avoiding cops on the road because my tags have been expired since April, and borrowing money from my dad to get my phone service reconnected on top off all of this- not fun. I just get tired sometimes. I get tired of working my ass off and still being ass-broke. *sigh* But I know this is just a phase of my life and I will reap the benefits of my investments sooner or later. My vote is for sooner.

Anyway, I am feeling energized again after my little episode of exhaustion and I'm ready to hit the ground running.

*** I actually wrote this post last week but my computer here at work sucks and so it wouldn't post. So I had saved it to try again later. Today it worked but now its outdated. So just know that a couple things have changed- I got a little money, got my tags renewed, sold another painting (to my mom, but still..) and am generally just feeling better about life.

Jack of all trades, master of none.

I am an amateur painter, a wannabe rockstar, an unlicensed interior "decorator", an all bite and no bark do-gooder, a failing vegan, an ill-equipped photographer, an irregular exerciser with love handles, an unfocused intellectual, a here-and-there clothing designer, an inconsistent songwriter. Good but not the best, ideas without direction, talent without training, endless potential. potential, potential, potential.

But how long can I be the girl on her way, before I'm just the woman who never got there?

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#5-7

A while back there was a facebook fad where everyone posted a note called "25 things" which listed 25 random things about them. I missed the train because I couldn't think of 25 things in one sitting so I decided I would write random facts on here as they came into my head. As predicted, it has been about 5 months since the first one and I'm only on #5.

Ok, now that you are reminded of what I am doing, allow me to continue. Let's knock a couple out-

#5 Mumbling is a pet peeve of mine.

#6 Heavy breathing is a pet peeve of mine.

#7 Mumbling + heavy breathing + bad smelling cologne = I'm going to [want to] kill you. (yes you, IT guy!)

3.1 Phillip Lim

Apparantly today is fashion day.. I've been hanging out on style.com looking at a lot of the Resort Collections. I was gonna leave it at one fashion post for today but this particular outfit just has to be shared. love love love it. The rest of that collection is great too and in fact, Phillip Lim is just awesome.

In <3 with Giles

I'm in love with everything about this collection from Giles







The colors are great; the tailoring is great; the details are great. Most of all I love the presentation of the collection in this photoshoot. Oh man, it just makes me happy to look at.